Things are gonna turn around.

Novermber 29, 2009; Sunday.
" This static is to much, we need to clear it up. "

EYY OOOO bloggers,
So i pratically re-wrote this blog like how many times? How annoying. So this or i mean LAST week wasn't such a pretty week... I mean every week there's always a day, that i never like. Last week... ugh. I don't know what me and 22 are anymore. We haven't talked for like 2 days? & i really don't mind it. I think this is just for the best right now. Nothings ever fair... & it will never be. No matter how badly i want to help him find the right choice/road... I always have to quit what i want or what i'm doing... Just to fix up his life. Now that i know that were not talking... & there's a chance your gonna get _ _ _ _ _... Scares me... & now i feel like i'm the one to blame, when i shouldn't. Fqn & Bh told me i'm stupid becus i put others before myself... & i'm not gonna disagree becus its true... & it's not like i like it but i can't help it... So i just don't know what to do... Like when i want to hang out with closefriends for most a guy he calles his "BROTHER" he gets jealous and starts saying shit about them... & thats not fair to them... So they end up not talking to me in front of him nor do they hang out with me when he's around... & i even asked him what he would do if i had a boyfriend... and his answer was he was gonna get _ _ _ _ _.... So thats like saying you may care about me but i d c you just have to be MY best friend. & to tell you the truth i don't like that... Ugh i hate how i always can help other people ... but i can never help myself... HOW FUCKEN RETARTED... right? Everything i do is just never good enough for you... I don't know what else to do... I think i should just drop it from here & just go our seperate ways... Loosing you FOREVER isn't just worth this kind of friendship. Bleh. So what else is there. Umm i've been talking to FOB BOY alot :O... & i don't know if thats a good or bad thing O__O.. But he's fun to talk to (: He helps me forget my problems... But no matter what it'll always come back. BLEH. But yea. & St actually imed me yesterday @ he's alrighhty haha.But not matter what i always end up missin Sdt... :/ & i hate it. bleh. I feel so out balance with the girls... Like its so hard to talk to beast :/ ... ( so i had to stop there because my dad saw something and i had to sign out before he read this!!! )

ALEX (paul) <3 (:

For Danny Nguyen <3

For Frank Nguyen <3

You think your right?

November 6,2009; Friday.
"I've been thinking about you
And how we used to be then
Back when we didn't have to live we could start again
There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories"

I'm hatin' on youtube right now -____-"... Now i shall listen to selfish (:! Dude i noticed so many people are havin' a shit load of problems... :/ What a bad ass month. So like i found out tbk is a senior... Totally changes everything :(... Now i'll only have like couple of months to get to know him! gayyy. I thought he was a daymn junior ! Oh wellz, one day(: ... Hopefully. So lately i've been feeling really dull. Like i d k how to explain it... but mel gets me :/... Like i feel so departured from everything... I miss talking to mfqn, cdn, amm, kdvn, bfst, sdt, ktl, and a shit load of other people... I just feel like i'm always busy & tired to do anything... I d k but it feels like i have no one to talk to now of dayss. I have the girls but its like we only talk at school & kenny -___-" i need a daymn break from him... I still can't breathe with him near me... I told him i think dk is cute... Man lonely. There always has to be something -_____-" god daymn. So i wanna go to Los's umm sadies ^___^... BUT we'll seeeee. Can't wait for banquet for tennis :D! I'm like really excited. Tennis actually helps me relax... but I get tired :(... Sometimes i wish i had a bike or something to get away for a while... BLEH. I'm like oh so tired. I wonder how i did on my spanish test D: fuckkkk. I'm like so scared... Geometry, Chemistry, History, and Spanish are all on the edge... ESP chem :(... Mr.Bui is pretty chill but i d k his class is kinda i mean IS hard... mhmmmm. I just spilled how i felt about kenny to wonton -______-" kennys been really pissing me off. This morning he just fucken walked away without waiting for me... and he got mad at me -_____-" i was like uhhh wtf your the one who fucken walked away. & then at lunch he fucken like kept blaming me for shit i didn't do and ughhh so annoying. I seriously don't know what to do with him... Its like every choice i have always ends up hurting him.. and like i hate him but i love him... make sense? blehh i have nothing more to say... BYE BYE.

Always so tired...

November 3, 2009; Tuesday.
" It never seems to matter what i do, its never good enough for you. "

So today's just one of those normal days. I d k why i'm always so daymn tired now of days :(!... Kenny says i'm old :I ... I have a chemistry test tmm and didn't study... I'm like just so daymn lazy... BLEH. So someone i used to somewhat like is "TRYING" to talk to me again O__O... How weird. I think he's expecting us to have something? I d k. So like me a TBK were somewhat matching ! >:) hehehe. But i still didn't have the guts to say shit -_____-"... Ugh i'm never gonna get to know him :'(! I is so sad... Dude tennis today was kinda fun ^___^! My hits were nice! We'll most of them. It's so awkward to talk to ptv, even thought i haven't talked to him... It's just weird... Like i've lost my respect i d k i just can't see him as the guy i once ... somewhat almost loved... Dude i HATE school so much -_____-" esp, chemistry ! SO DAYMN HARD. I wanna read someone's blog/tumblr BUT stupid computer ... UGH. I haven't been on myspace in like forever :(... Oh well. So me and kenny are like ok now (: but it kinda seems like all i do is try to talk to him... I d k ... Feels like i'm building this bridge alone :(... But i'm not gonna say anything... because were already ok & i don't wanna mess up anything... I just really want to freaken talk to TBK :( ... needa grow some daymn balls already FACKKK. Well i guess thats all ! I'm really tired :( & i still gotta shower ... ADIOS.

Don't trip its family shit <3

November 1, 2009; Sunday.

"My bodys trembling its so damn hard To kick this feeling, your heart is so cold and now Im freezing Wish you could feel the pain baby I will embrace it "



Hello today,

I'm so tired right now... I have like chem notes & history project -____-" Yesterday was kinda boring :(! BUT it wasn't all that bad. I d k what to do with kenny... We're like ugh. I keep saying this and i don't do anything about it... Because the truth is i can't do anything. I'm always so scared to hurt him... Even though i already am... UGH. Where do i go from here? Where do i turn? Maybe i should've just listened to brian & justin :(... Should've let go when i had the chance... BLEH. So yesterday i saw some cute guyssss ^___^ but... LOL i didn't talk to them haha... FAIL right? some SCANDALOUSSSS SHIT this week... But mondays comin -_____-" ugh... I hate school... Even though its going to fast i still hate it... Imma miss tennis :(! But then i really wanna join basketball but i'm scared i won't make it... ALOT of freshemen and sophmores wanna join D:! GAHHH. Oh well. I needa grow some guts to talk to that kevin guy :(! I wanna get to know him so daymn bad! BLEH BELH!Well i have alot of homework :( sorta? Well bye bye nigglets << LOL brians word <3 love him.