Things are gonna turn around.

Novermber 29, 2009; Sunday.
" This static is to much, we need to clear it up. "

EYY OOOO bloggers,
So i pratically re-wrote this blog like how many times? How annoying. So this or i mean LAST week wasn't such a pretty week... I mean every week there's always a day, that i never like. Last week... ugh. I don't know what me and 22 are anymore. We haven't talked for like 2 days? & i really don't mind it. I think this is just for the best right now. Nothings ever fair... & it will never be. No matter how badly i want to help him find the right choice/road... I always have to quit what i want or what i'm doing... Just to fix up his life. Now that i know that were not talking... & there's a chance your gonna get _ _ _ _ _... Scares me... & now i feel like i'm the one to blame, when i shouldn't. Fqn & Bh told me i'm stupid becus i put others before myself... & i'm not gonna disagree becus its true... & it's not like i like it but i can't help it... So i just don't know what to do... Like when i want to hang out with closefriends for most a guy he calles his "BROTHER" he gets jealous and starts saying shit about them... & thats not fair to them... So they end up not talking to me in front of him nor do they hang out with me when he's around... & i even asked him what he would do if i had a boyfriend... and his answer was he was gonna get _ _ _ _ _.... So thats like saying you may care about me but i d c you just have to be MY best friend. & to tell you the truth i don't like that... Ugh i hate how i always can help other people ... but i can never help myself... HOW FUCKEN RETARTED... right? Everything i do is just never good enough for you... I don't know what else to do... I think i should just drop it from here & just go our seperate ways... Loosing you FOREVER isn't just worth this kind of friendship. Bleh. So what else is there. Umm i've been talking to FOB BOY alot :O... & i don't know if thats a good or bad thing O__O.. But he's fun to talk to (: He helps me forget my problems... But no matter what it'll always come back. BLEH. But yea. & St actually imed me yesterday @ he's alrighhty haha.But not matter what i always end up missin Sdt... :/ & i hate it. bleh. I feel so out balance with the girls... Like its so hard to talk to beast :/ ... ( so i had to stop there because my dad saw something and i had to sign out before he read this!!! )