After all this time i noticed i still can't figure you out... and it seems to be pissing me off now. You are differen't :/... & it makes me mad that i can't have you now... Your like stuck in my head... and i HATE it... I'm like trying to run away & when i can't ... I can't seem to face the facts. It break my heart to know that i'm trying for someone who isn't even there... For someone who's already moved on... What am i gonna do now? ... It's like all this time i found something to smile about... then lost it. Like sand... It slipped out of my palms and i just couldn't grip it.
Today i had a girls night ? sorta. Like a little girls christmas party/ girls night?. It was whatevers. They talked about THE THING... I hate when her name comes up... I just wanna ripe her head off. I had some laughs, and a couple smiles, but no matter how hard to try to think of something else... You popped up. I can't help this, i can't stand this, and i just want to stab myself.
LIKE FUCK MY LIFE TO THE FUCKEN FULLEST. I need to sleep... I don't think i can take this anymore... It's just time to face the music. No matter what i do its gonna always hurt... No matter what i say nothing's gonna change. The best part is school's gonna come soon... & i'll have to see your face... But the worest part is maybe you've... NO you did move on. & you probally have a new chick... :/ ... I wonder how thats gonna go... + THE THING... &'s 22. MY LIFE IS FULL OF JOY...
I talked to Melissa Katherine Le... :'/ I miss her so much. I miss Katie Nguyen too... Mannn i hate this. I HATE MY FUCKEN LIFE. period.
:/ Can you atleast let me explain... Would you let me show you i'm better then that... I just needed time... ugh. This is pointlesss, i'm like talking to myself.
"romeo & juliet, i wanna love you but i just can't seem to do it yet."
daymn that says it all. :'/ WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND?...
JUST LET GO.
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