That blogging is now my sense of security. Like i barely like to talk to anyone about my problems.... Even though this daymn thing never post my shit. @tleast i let my feelings out. I've been trying to attempt to clean my clothes... and i've finally gotta far enough to say i somewhat cleaned my room ^___^ HAHA.
Today i learned from myself that it isn't about how far you get, its about what you accomplished along the way.
I somewhat got yelled @... because i don't wear al the clothes in my closet... and i have no right to disagree... because i alaways ask my parents for everything and i don't ever appriciate them, like i should... I'm hella spoiled... :( i need to stop.
Steve-o: you did it.
so i said this to dk :
I noticed whenever I try to talk to you either if its some damn thing like this… I can never find the right words to say or what to say. I always have something in mind but then when it comes time to speak out I just freeze up. When I said it seems like you always push me away, I was wrong to say that because I’m the one pushing you away… I’m scared to loose you and I’m just scared period. & the reason I tell you about my past is so that you know who I was and who I still am. I always question you when I shouldn’t, I worry when I shouldn’t, and I always over think when I shouldn’t. I really like you dk… A LOT… but I just don’t think I love you just yet, maybe one day, but not now. I want us to work more then anything… I want you to be the guy that changes my life, I want you to be the guy who proves me wrong, and I want you to be the guy I can say I once fell in love with him. Today I realize everything I’ve been doing wrong, and I’ve been trying so hard to figure out what to do… when really I just need to be myself. I just want you apart of my life, even if you don’t like me and it means all we can be is friends then I’ll just except the way things should be. Your differen’t and I’m not gonna lie. You may not know it but you helped me realized a lot of things I never knew. Lol this sound so stupid… but I just needed to let you know… get things off my chest. I hope you know where I’m coming from… I’m sorry I haven’t been the best “girlfriend” and I haven’t been on my best behavior… but I do want us to work.
i just need to get shit off my chest... Time to be real & not FAKE. like that one bitch -_____-".
well i think thats all for today.... BYE.
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