I'm stronger, stronger, stronger.

January 24, 2010; Sunday.

Today seem'd so long... I hate sunday's :(!

This week was suprising and tiring. I found some things out, all involving trust, and realizing how hard it is to keep things inside. I seriously don't know what i'm doing, nor do i know what to do, but i guess i gotta take a road. I don't know where it's going to take me, but i'm for'sure not going to regret it. If i learn'd anything from this and my past, is to stay strong (:! No one said things would be easy, but it's only complicated because we make it that way.

My parents fight alot... For the stupidest things ever -_____-" It's getting annoying. I just wanna yell "shut up, already!" but i'm pretty sure i'm not gonna get away with that so easly. lol.

I've began to realize how much i'm starting to miss kenny :/... But at the same time i don't?... I don't expect anyone to get it, but i don't even understand myself. Like things feel the same, but then again everything seems so fake, so different. Like i'm looking at someone else. He's kenny somewhere in there, but he's not. Confusing right?

So this week was pretty much Grasshopper & Casper week! I don't know why, but they seem to remind me of myself, somehow. lol. To tell you the truth, i didn't expect to become so close to any freshmens, and certainly not even get along with them like this, but i have. These girls are like my little sisters. They haven't been there that long, but somehow i feel as if i can trust them, and i do.

The other thing i've realize i've been doing wrong is, i'm pushing people away again. Like i'm putting all my time in dk. I shoudln't be acting like this :/ ... Like danny... I never have time for him anymore... I need to start putting time in for him. I feel as if i'm putting to much time into dk. I think i just need to take a chill pill. lol. I don't wanna get to close, but then again i don't wanna be to far :/ Bleh. My feelings for him is so mix. I don't know what i feel now. It's like i like him then i don't then i do. I just really wanna know that thing that i was told... But the fact i can't find out just pisses me off... I wanna know if its true or if its fake... :/ ! Well i guess that's all for now, bye bye.