January 24, 2010; Sunday.
Today seem'd so long... I hate sunday's :(!
This week was suprising and tiring. I found some things out, all involving trust, and realizing how hard it is to keep things inside. I seriously don't know what i'm doing, nor do i know what to do, but i guess i gotta take a road. I don't know where it's going to take me, but i'm for'sure not going to regret it. If i learn'd anything from this and my past, is to stay strong (:! No one said things would be easy, but it's only complicated because we make it that way.
My parents fight alot... For the stupidest things ever -_____-" It's getting annoying. I just wanna yell "shut up, already!" but i'm pretty sure i'm not gonna get away with that so easly. lol.
I've began to realize how much i'm starting to miss kenny :/... But at the same time i don't?... I don't expect anyone to get it, but i don't even understand myself. Like things feel the same, but then again everything seems so fake, so different. Like i'm looking at someone else. He's kenny somewhere in there, but he's not. Confusing right?
So this week was pretty much Grasshopper & Casper week! I don't know why, but they seem to remind me of myself, somehow. lol. To tell you the truth, i didn't expect to become so close to any freshmens, and certainly not even get along with them like this, but i have. These girls are like my little sisters. They haven't been there that long, but somehow i feel as if i can trust them, and i do.
The other thing i've realize i've been doing wrong is, i'm pushing people away again. Like i'm putting all my time in dk. I shoudln't be acting like this :/ ... Like danny... I never have time for him anymore... I need to start putting time in for him. I feel as if i'm putting to much time into dk. I think i just need to take a chill pill. lol. I don't wanna get to close, but then again i don't wanna be to far :/ Bleh. My feelings for him is so mix. I don't know what i feel now. It's like i like him then i don't then i do. I just really wanna know that thing that i was told... But the fact i can't find out just pisses me off... I wanna know if its true or if its fake... :/ ! Well i guess that's all for now, bye bye.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
Expect everything
I've been through hell this week :/ & somehow i don't feel a change? I d k anymore. What am i doing? lol... Well this blog was to compliment all the people who have been there through everything for me. <3
Beast Nicole M Nguyen: My number one girly, my homie, and a true sister. Man we had shit through out or past but managed so much and gain'd everything back within a couple months. I can't believe we've been best friend's this long. I know to some people it's not as long as kingergarden or something, but she does mean alot to me. She's been there for me through everything, my battles, and on the battle field with me. She's kept me standing strong if anything. I don't know what i'd do without her, i love you beast <3.
Shelly Michelle AN Nguyen: You're like a sister to me, too. Seriously, we've had our laughs. No matter how rough things got in our lives, we could always still laugh like dumbasses together! You would always help me no matter what it was, either boys?, or friends. & when tears begin to stream down my cheek... Your hugs seem to brighten my day. You always know how to cheer me at my worst, i love you shell<3.
Cf Sonny TN Vu: To think about it we haven't been through rough times together... like we've never fought or anything like that. But when people tend to have problems with me, you seem to comfort me and help me realize that it's just not worth the pain. You've always stood by me... Even at my worst, you've never left my side... I love you cf <3.
#1 Boy Danny D Nguyen: Man straight out our past was kinda rough/ish? & somehow we ended up super close! You're not always the one to be handing me advice... but you are a good listener. No matter how stupid i sound or how pathetic i tend to be, you're still always there for me. You always try and help me surpass my problems... Even when you know you can't do anything, you still try to succeed. I love you # 1 boy <3.
Master Bastord Frank Q Nguyen: You made me realize alot in my life. You always confronted me and told me things straight up. You're like the only person i can talk about shitting HAHA. & your so easy to talk to, even if it's been like months that i haven't talked to you. Whenever i talk to you, we talk like we've been talking everyday, like you said," we click". I love you master<3.
Tubby Anthony Tran: I always know i can be myself around you. You seem to have that stupidness that makes me always have the nerve to make fun of you, hahaha! I can always joke around with you and not have me or you get butthurt about it. No matter how mean we are to each other, we both know we care for each other, alot. He's like my gossip budddy. A talker &'d a listener. I love you tubby<3.
Best friend Justin Thai: I've only known you for couple years, like 3/ish? & somehow you've seem to figure me out and you already know how i am. For a guy, you give pretty good advice. You just tell me like it is, and how it should go down. You always listen to everything i complain or talk about. You never seem to complain or say anything, no matter how annoying i think i am... you seem to always be there when i need you. i love you best friend<3.
Big Sis Melissa K Le: I don't know where to start & where to end. You have always always been so supportive. You had my back through everything and when the worst came to serve, you threw it back at me, and said you can do this. You've made me stronger and i never thought to see the day. You improved me for the better, taught me many things, and most of all the love for someone. You give the best advice and it's always helpful. I don't know where i'd be if i didn't have you, i love you big sister<3.
Chanel Singtomydaddy: I noticed whenever i need you, you're always there. Like before when we didn't talk at all and i just needed someone to talk to, you were there, and you understood how i felt. You're always there for me, watching out for me. You are one crazy asss mother hoe bag, but i mean what would i do without you? Your like the crazy in my life, hahaha. I love you singtomydaddy<3.
Daniel Keovongsa: I barely met you and it's funny because i usually say it feels like i've known people my whole life... But the truth is i don't know you. Your complicated, confusing, and just full of non sense. Sometimes i can't stand the things you do or don't know... & sometimes i just wish you knew how i felt. But in the end you always seem to pull me in... & i don't know how. I still haven't figured you out yet, i still don't even know why i like you... i d k why, but i always tend to have this feelings like i'm going to loose you...& yet somehow you keep my on my feet... I can't seem to not smile around you. You make me feel like i'm home, like finally things are starting to open up, and finally i belong somewhere, BUT then again, somehow things tend to switch up too... Things are never what they seem with you... But i don't know, your just simply you.
Beast Nicole M Nguyen: My number one girly, my homie, and a true sister. Man we had shit through out or past but managed so much and gain'd everything back within a couple months. I can't believe we've been best friend's this long. I know to some people it's not as long as kingergarden or something, but she does mean alot to me. She's been there for me through everything, my battles, and on the battle field with me. She's kept me standing strong if anything. I don't know what i'd do without her, i love you beast <3.
Shelly Michelle AN Nguyen: You're like a sister to me, too. Seriously, we've had our laughs. No matter how rough things got in our lives, we could always still laugh like dumbasses together! You would always help me no matter what it was, either boys?, or friends. & when tears begin to stream down my cheek... Your hugs seem to brighten my day. You always know how to cheer me at my worst, i love you shell<3.
Cf Sonny TN Vu: To think about it we haven't been through rough times together... like we've never fought or anything like that. But when people tend to have problems with me, you seem to comfort me and help me realize that it's just not worth the pain. You've always stood by me... Even at my worst, you've never left my side... I love you cf <3.
#1 Boy Danny D Nguyen: Man straight out our past was kinda rough/ish? & somehow we ended up super close! You're not always the one to be handing me advice... but you are a good listener. No matter how stupid i sound or how pathetic i tend to be, you're still always there for me. You always try and help me surpass my problems... Even when you know you can't do anything, you still try to succeed. I love you # 1 boy <3.
Master Bastord Frank Q Nguyen: You made me realize alot in my life. You always confronted me and told me things straight up. You're like the only person i can talk about shitting HAHA. & your so easy to talk to, even if it's been like months that i haven't talked to you. Whenever i talk to you, we talk like we've been talking everyday, like you said," we click". I love you master<3.
Tubby Anthony Tran: I always know i can be myself around you. You seem to have that stupidness that makes me always have the nerve to make fun of you, hahaha! I can always joke around with you and not have me or you get butthurt about it. No matter how mean we are to each other, we both know we care for each other, alot. He's like my gossip budddy. A talker &'d a listener. I love you tubby<3.
Best friend Justin Thai: I've only known you for couple years, like 3/ish? & somehow you've seem to figure me out and you already know how i am. For a guy, you give pretty good advice. You just tell me like it is, and how it should go down. You always listen to everything i complain or talk about. You never seem to complain or say anything, no matter how annoying i think i am... you seem to always be there when i need you. i love you best friend<3.
Big Sis Melissa K Le: I don't know where to start & where to end. You have always always been so supportive. You had my back through everything and when the worst came to serve, you threw it back at me, and said you can do this. You've made me stronger and i never thought to see the day. You improved me for the better, taught me many things, and most of all the love for someone. You give the best advice and it's always helpful. I don't know where i'd be if i didn't have you, i love you big sister<3.
Chanel Singtomydaddy: I noticed whenever i need you, you're always there. Like before when we didn't talk at all and i just needed someone to talk to, you were there, and you understood how i felt. You're always there for me, watching out for me. You are one crazy asss mother hoe bag, but i mean what would i do without you? Your like the crazy in my life, hahaha. I love you singtomydaddy<3.
Daniel Keovongsa: I barely met you and it's funny because i usually say it feels like i've known people my whole life... But the truth is i don't know you. Your complicated, confusing, and just full of non sense. Sometimes i can't stand the things you do or don't know... & sometimes i just wish you knew how i felt. But in the end you always seem to pull me in... & i don't know how. I still haven't figured you out yet, i still don't even know why i like you... i d k why, but i always tend to have this feelings like i'm going to loose you...& yet somehow you keep my on my feet... I can't seem to not smile around you. You make me feel like i'm home, like finally things are starting to open up, and finally i belong somewhere, BUT then again, somehow things tend to switch up too... Things are never what they seem with you... But i don't know, your just simply you.
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