It's getting better (':

August 28, 2009; Friday.
"I know about down and out. I know about when it gets tough. Losing my fight, can't see the light. And you just wanna give up. I know about being depressed. By needing someone to love. I also know by standing up and saying enough is enough."

Today KT was suppose to come over >:O, but then her grand papa didn't know where i live & she was worried about him so yea :/ ! Oh well... Anywho, i went to ABGLN's house (: hehe. We went swimming with her little brother [ he's so ADORABLEEEEEEE!], thenn we played failure tennis, ,then we walked like 6 times around her neighborhood, and then we went to this small park to swing (: hehe. I feel like i lost weight, but not enough >:O! OH i'm getting darker too :D! MUAHAHA. I'm so tired now :) hehe. This is like the first time i'm happy about being sleepy ROFL. So i think i'm over AMM... We barely talk now... he takes forever to answer or he's playing games -____-" I don't think i could handle this if we went out D:! So yea... i think its time for a break (: ! Just get everything straight... & this time wait [: ! I kinda feel proud of myself, hehe (': ! OH & about SDT, i'm over it, and over him. I care way to much when he doesn't... so why care at all right? I don't wanna lose myself to someone who doesn't give a shit NO actually i'm never gonna lose myself to anyone. I'm not gonna wait for someone who isn't gonna be there. & for sure i don't want someone in my life who can't keep a promise. I tried to work things out and i did it by myself... even when i still had feelings for you... because i wanted us to stay friends... i stayed strong for myself... i believed in myself... and all you could say to me when i asked you if we were gonna ever be cool again, i got a don't know... thanks. It doesn't matter anymore i'm DONE. I feel so much better (: ! I kept my promise so you can't say SHIT. Enough about that. I wasn't supose to cuss and that stupid asshole -____-" URGH. Anywho i'm gonna stop here (: Imma go talk to my homies <3.>