Big brother,
So a couple of days ago your parents took you somewhere and you didn't know where... and i don't even know where... You won't even tell me where you are... I miss saying GOOOD MORNNING <3(: ... and good night... i'll miss your calls... :'/ I really miss you big brother... i regret not being there for you, while you were there for me... i'm so sorry i wasn't a good little sister... should've known better... i hate myself... i hope your doing ok babe<3... i miss you & love you dearly <3... stay ^, stay strong <3 I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART <3
-your little sister;
melissa missy le.
i love you always and forever babe <3
Saturday, July 25, 2009
HIM<3
So i remember the first time i saw you, you were in the pool getting ready to race. ^___^ i thought you were cuteee; & i didn't really think that we'd end up like this. We started talking and i guess the more we talked about our feelings, our life, and ect... i learned you were really easy to talk to. & who knew we'd end up the way we are now (':! It's cute cause you always want to take me out, pick me up, and spend time with me <3 I have never ever met a guy like you [': <3 Your really easy to talk to, you always listen to me, and you always make me feel like i actually mean something to someone(: & when you say MELISSA you make me smile, when you say babe i start to get butterflies, and when you say i love you :'D oh my gosh... my heart just beats faster and louder <3 I don't want to rush things, because i know in the end even if were miles away, i'll still feel the same... i have never ever felt like this in my whole life... & i don't wanna loose this feeling... or you<3 i'm happy i meant you ^____^ <3 i love you babe <3.
Monday, July 20, 2009
tweety two.
So we got into a fight.. and i just couldn't take the fact you always hovered over me... you always assumed... you always keppt pissing me off with all the shit you did... & you won't stop texting me... and you just texted me with this long message... & now i'm tearing and don't know why... is it cause i miss you?... is it cause i like you?... what the hell is wrong... i'm pretty sure i don't like you... but why am i crying.. why? i can't do this anymore... you saying sorry we aren't even a couple and yet we fight like it, and all this shit. its getting old... i don't know what to do... i love, but why did this have to happen to us...? why you... you know you deserve better but you won't open your eyes to see that... i'm tired... but i don't know what to do... should i talk to you... either way everything i do, you still hurt like crazy... and i don't wanna keep doing this shit to you... its not worth it... not worth our friendship... why are you letting me do this to you... why can't we just be friends, why can't you stop liking me, why me?!?!!... when i finish figuring out one problem i get another daymn problem... why don't you just kill me D': ... this is making me miss the thing... ugh, the thing randomly imed me the other day... and like while i was sleeping everything just rudhed back... and i wanted to hold your bear... but i'm over it, i just missing talking to you about my problems... you made everything so much easier... UGH, where are you when i need you :'/... i guess thats all i can say now... i still don't know what to do... help... ugh FML. bye.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
is it?
i don't know if my life got better or worse...? ugh, what a piece of shit. i hate this. my head hurts, and i wanna kill someone ! >:O loose one problem gain another one! shit,fml. my mom is pissing me the fuck off to; god she's a liar. UGHHHH KILL ME. i need to hang out with people fuck she better let me go since she wouldn't even let me go camping with MY OWN FAMILY! <^>. UGHHHHHH. my head hurts.. -_____-" i'm done i don't wanna do anything now.
pisses me off
my mom pisses me off so daymn much shit. i barely hang out & shit and she still won't even let me go camping with family WOW fml. and i actually do shit around the house i hate my life .
Monday, July 6, 2009
life.
so like i'm bored and i just felt like writing this.
Life's many things and sometimes things we can't explain. We all strive to become someone, when all we needed to be is our selves, and show everyone that we are someone already. Teens always having problems about boys, life, and looking a certain way. What if we had our whole world we could create? Then we wouldn't have to try and be someone else, when everyone wants to be you. We wouldn't do insanse about finding a guy in time because we would figure out what kind of guy we want, what he would be from his head to his toes. Our lives wouldn't be so dramatic, and we wouldn't loose people... or see people leave. The thing is thats only a dream and this is reality... we all have our problems, our ups and downs, but that doesn't mean giving up on yourself. Sometimes the best fall on there faces, no one's pefect, and we all mess up once in a while or even more then we should... but that doesn't mean giving up, or giving in because life gets rough at some point, but you can't because in time you'll eventually heal. Its not always easy and it does take a while to mend, to put the pieces back, and maybe even find those pieces... but you should always know that everything will be ok. You alway shave a choice to change the things in your life the way you want it, but sometimes you won't get what you want when you want it, and thats ok. But don't whine and say you give up on something or someone.... because really that means you just caved in, and gave up on yourself. Don't let people get the best of you, some people would kill to see you fall. If you have to write it out, express yourself some how to where there's no one else but you and whatever your doing. Life is an exprience you have to cherish cause you only get to live it once, and only once. So live life to the fullest, cause you still have alot of time to find that guy, you still have time to figure things out. Don't let that guy or girl let you down. If he or she doesn't make you happy then let go , don't hold on just because your scared or your just with them cause in the end you'll get jealous if they're with someone else. Because it will do you a whole lot better if you let go and move on. Just because your letting go doesn't mean you have to give up, or this and that. Its all about memories, and cherishing it. Cause once in your life you wanted that person, and you got them for once. So don't regret, cause things happen for a reason and sometimes reason's we don't want but its like we live to learn and love it.
Life's many things and sometimes things we can't explain. We all strive to become someone, when all we needed to be is our selves, and show everyone that we are someone already. Teens always having problems about boys, life, and looking a certain way. What if we had our whole world we could create? Then we wouldn't have to try and be someone else, when everyone wants to be you. We wouldn't do insanse about finding a guy in time because we would figure out what kind of guy we want, what he would be from his head to his toes. Our lives wouldn't be so dramatic, and we wouldn't loose people... or see people leave. The thing is thats only a dream and this is reality... we all have our problems, our ups and downs, but that doesn't mean giving up on yourself. Sometimes the best fall on there faces, no one's pefect, and we all mess up once in a while or even more then we should... but that doesn't mean giving up, or giving in because life gets rough at some point, but you can't because in time you'll eventually heal. Its not always easy and it does take a while to mend, to put the pieces back, and maybe even find those pieces... but you should always know that everything will be ok. You alway shave a choice to change the things in your life the way you want it, but sometimes you won't get what you want when you want it, and thats ok. But don't whine and say you give up on something or someone.... because really that means you just caved in, and gave up on yourself. Don't let people get the best of you, some people would kill to see you fall. If you have to write it out, express yourself some how to where there's no one else but you and whatever your doing. Life is an exprience you have to cherish cause you only get to live it once, and only once. So live life to the fullest, cause you still have alot of time to find that guy, you still have time to figure things out. Don't let that guy or girl let you down. If he or she doesn't make you happy then let go , don't hold on just because your scared or your just with them cause in the end you'll get jealous if they're with someone else. Because it will do you a whole lot better if you let go and move on. Just because your letting go doesn't mean you have to give up, or this and that. Its all about memories, and cherishing it. Cause once in your life you wanted that person, and you got them for once. So don't regret, cause things happen for a reason and sometimes reason's we don't want but its like we live to learn and love it.
Another day.
HELLO LAVS;
VV that blog was kinda wack.. i was so tired :/, but i still phoned with ze best friend <3 haha. so i slept @ 3? again. D': GAHHHH. so like yesterday was really boring... just painting and what not! i can't wait to paint my room ^____^ tehe. i still don't know what to do with this one wall ! help me. dude i'm so tired right now its not even funny D:! my head hurts ! i'm so tired... HAHA. i wanna go running :/, but linda won't go with me ! what a faggggg. TEHE! check 1 2 . so like i had a dream about him last night O__O getting arrested LOL whaddd the facccck right? so weird. haha, i have such weird mother ass dreams... :/! for once why couldn't be dreams be about pony's and rainbows and UGH. haha last night was funny, i told kenny all these stuff that have happened to me when i was younger HAHA FACCCCKIN funny shit (:! hehe. i am so tired i think imma cry now D:! gahhhh. i wanna go asian garden mall ! fack i needa sleep earlier man. just now it smelled good then it went away ROFL. mannnn i think imma stop blogging now D:! i'm so tired... !
BYE BYE LAVVVS;
VV that blog was kinda wack.. i was so tired :/, but i still phoned with ze best friend <3 haha. so i slept @ 3? again. D': GAHHHH. so like yesterday was really boring... just painting and what not! i can't wait to paint my room ^____^ tehe. i still don't know what to do with this one wall ! help me. dude i'm so tired right now its not even funny D:! my head hurts ! i'm so tired... HAHA. i wanna go running :/, but linda won't go with me ! what a faggggg. TEHE! check 1 2 . so like i had a dream about him last night O__O getting arrested LOL whaddd the facccck right? so weird. haha, i have such weird mother ass dreams... :/! for once why couldn't be dreams be about pony's and rainbows and UGH. haha last night was funny, i told kenny all these stuff that have happened to me when i was younger HAHA FACCCCKIN funny shit (:! hehe. i am so tired i think imma cry now D:! gahhhh. i wanna go asian garden mall ! fack i needa sleep earlier man. just now it smelled good then it went away ROFL. mannnn i think imma stop blogging now D:! i'm so tired... !
BYE BYE LAVVVS;
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Another day.
HELLO LOVES;
so its like 12:13 haha D: i'm so tired.. i was talking to my big brother last night till 3 or something oh god :/! but its ok i liked talking to him, he's cute (':<3 so me and el BEST f VV the one down there are ok now ^___^ and i'm happy <3 he means alot to me. so like yea my big sister's having problems and i'm just trying to help :/.. i'm so tired... there has been so many problems. GAHH well i have nothing more i'm out. BYE LOVES; night <3
so its like 12:13 haha D: i'm so tired.. i was talking to my big brother last night till 3 or something oh god :/! but its ok i liked talking to him, he's cute (':<3 so me and el BEST f VV the one down there are ok now ^___^ and i'm happy <3 he means alot to me. so like yea my big sister's having problems and i'm just trying to help :/.. i'm so tired... there has been so many problems. GAHH well i have nothing more i'm out. BYE LOVES; night <3
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Your so STUPID.
Can my life get any worse? ugh, i gotta stop saying that -_____-" FML man... dude i'm like loosing my best friend, and all he can do is make it worse! FUCK YOU NEED TO OPEN YOUR EYES! you say you wanna be with me and shit when you can't even take the fact your like fucken killing our friend ship ! your so fucken stupid, stop being a girl. you say your a man, but all i fucken see is a little bitch. why the fuck would i ever get with you if all you are is a little pain in an ass. SHIT BITCH, grow up open your fucken EYES your making everything worse. ALL YOU FUCKEN DO IS THINK ABOUT YOURSELF. your a little dumbass, i told myself i'd never regret but your pushing it to the edge. i always thought you'd be different but fuck man i was wrong. god daymn, your like ugh pissing me the fuck off. your worse then _ _ _ _ ! and i thought i'd never say that but fuck your stupid. i'm done idgaf about you anymore. your pathetic.
poem.
You told me you’d come around
You told me I didn’t have to run
All I had to do was be around
I keep my head up high
& my feet on the ground
I knew I could do better
But better wasn’t what I found
I wanted you to see me
Yet I couldn’t even get a clue
I wanted to believe in the better
& see tomorrow through
I couldn’t let go
& I couldn’t say bye
Cause when you said forever
I really thought we would be together
Until you left a letter saying good bye
I told myself to hold back
But the tears rolled
And my heart was about to unfold
Pouring my heart out
& having my body numbed
I felt as if we were nothing
Nothing but a broke song
I gave you my all
And my all was all I could give
I can’t keep giving you chances
And watching you walk out
I’m not just another toy
You can’t just pull my string
And expect me to run back
-melissa missy le
You told me I didn’t have to run
All I had to do was be around
I keep my head up high
& my feet on the ground
I knew I could do better
But better wasn’t what I found
I wanted you to see me
Yet I couldn’t even get a clue
I wanted to believe in the better
& see tomorrow through
I couldn’t let go
& I couldn’t say bye
Cause when you said forever
I really thought we would be together
Until you left a letter saying good bye
I told myself to hold back
But the tears rolled
And my heart was about to unfold
Pouring my heart out
& having my body numbed
I felt as if we were nothing
Nothing but a broke song
I gave you my all
And my all was all I could give
I can’t keep giving you chances
And watching you walk out
I’m not just another toy
You can’t just pull my string
And expect me to run back
-melissa missy le
Here we go again.
Here we go again (:
so baby i said we'd hit repeat and you denied it but look who came out on top ! ^__^; tehe what dumbass! well me and jennie are ok now ! haha it was good talking to her D: i can't believe i did what i did just because of one daymn dumbass :/... i hurt so many people and i didn't noticed... but i mean i'm sorry to all those people.. man i'm a bitch. imma stop talking about him now. it's pissing me off almost this whole daymn blog shit is about him D:! i fail huh?... dude i can't wait to paint my room ^______^ tehe! i wonder if it'll turn out nice !?!? gahh. omg bowling tmm ! tehe & camping with ze BEAST FRIEND on july 10th ! yeaaaaap(: can't wait. daymn, i'm so tired D:... i miss basketball :/ even though i suck shit.. i miss frosh team :')! gayy man stats next year :/! but i mean who cares i get to be with thm girls <3! tehe. OH MY GOD i'm so sore from yesterday ! acually not really lol. well i guess thats all for now? haha bye bye
so baby i said we'd hit repeat and you denied it but look who came out on top ! ^__^; tehe what dumbass! well me and jennie are ok now ! haha it was good talking to her D: i can't believe i did what i did just because of one daymn dumbass :/... i hurt so many people and i didn't noticed... but i mean i'm sorry to all those people.. man i'm a bitch. imma stop talking about him now. it's pissing me off almost this whole daymn blog shit is about him D:! i fail huh?... dude i can't wait to paint my room ^______^ tehe! i wonder if it'll turn out nice !?!? gahh. omg bowling tmm ! tehe & camping with ze BEAST FRIEND on july 10th ! yeaaaaap(: can't wait. daymn, i'm so tired D:... i miss basketball :/ even though i suck shit.. i miss frosh team :')! gayy man stats next year :/! but i mean who cares i get to be with thm girls <3! tehe. OH MY GOD i'm so sore from yesterday ! acually not really lol. well i guess thats all for now? haha bye bye
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