Lesson's

I guess going through all that pain, all that time i waisted, and the effort i put into him may have been a waist? but he was once someone i wanted to be with. and no matter how hard i try to forget him, i learned i never will, its hard to forget people once they walked in. i guess the whole time i've been trying to forget him, i've waisted time, cause its not about forget its about moving on. i only cried so much, and the reason's why i couldn't stop thinking about you, because i wanted to, i keep telling myself i couldn't forget you or i couldn't stop thinking of you when really i could've stop but i guess i didn't want to... cause i didn't want to let go yet, i didn't wanna think i lost you, and i didn't wanna tell myself imma get hurt... when really i was just hurting myself, not him me... and i hated it, cause its like i just let you step all over me like i was nothing, like i just let you take over me like you owed me.... and i was pathetic and stupid... but you know what not anymore, i my miss you once in a while, and thats normal & sometimes i might miss you more then i should. but you know what imma keep going, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how rough it gets. i will move on either with or without you. and i'm not gonna let you stomp all over me again, i'm not. i'm sick of having to wait around for someone who won't come around, someone who doesn't even treat me right after all the shit that happened, and someone who acually follows through. i'm sick of it, and i'm tired of how all i said i was sick and tired, and how i didn't do shit about it but mope around for you... but i'm done with that. imma keep looking forward. no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much i miss you, imma stop looking back, imma stop running back. cause us is no more, and i'm through with your silly games. i'm done babe. imma keep looking forward, because its about the present & the future NOT the past. babe i'm gone and done with you. i'm done (':