March 21, 2010; Sunday.
“ Love is just a game and sometimes you lose.”
Something doesn’t feel right anymore. I think I’m losing feelings for you? But I’m not sure… I don’t want to put you through all this once again. What am I suppose to do?... I love you… but… ): What do I do? Something about us, doesn’t seem so (: anymore. I don’t know if it’s just me? Maybe you feel it too, but you just don’t want to say anything. Maybe I’m thinking about this to much. I don't want to put you through hell again. I did it once and i'm not ready to do it again... NO i'm not ready to do it at all. I can't stand how i've never liked someone more then a month. Someone who is actually willing to stick around... but when someone doesn't want to stick around i seem to chase them -____-" How dumb am i ? REALLY. Ugh, i don't know we'll just have to see how things end up.
Last week was such a headache for me ):! I had so much on my plate and so little time to do it all. I cried because i was so stressed... Freaken emotional wreck, much? I think so. I should be finished up my research paper ): FML. My grades are dropping and i have no hope in my chemistry class what so ever... I should've went and took the freaken test for Mr.Bui >:O I HATE MYSELF. UGH. I'm sick of school ): not even two more years left... MY WHOLE LIFE... ugh. Well that's all for now. bye.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
A step back can always be a step forward.
March 8, 2010; Monday.
Maybe taking that step back help'd me realize what i was missing out on
I realized that i barely blog or anything now... I don't even have time to write letters anymore):! I'm trying to stay more focused on school & what not! I gotta pull my grades up... They've been recently slipping... esp, chemistry -____-" UGH. I just finished math homework :( & i am as tired as a busy bubble bee ! Oh so a lot has changed/ new things have happened? Me & Dk aren't "seeing" each other anymore. I guess it was for the best? I mean maybe i was moving to fast while he seem'd to take his time... & i just couldn't wait for someone who couldn't do what they said? I don't know. I'm very different? I'm complex, i don't like simple. Haha, i am multitasking): A tad bit hard, if i do say so myself. So my grandmama on my papa's side recently passed away :/ ... I am not sad because i didn't want her to go... I mean i didn't, but i mean i didn't want her to suffer while just sitting in the hospital, right? I'm just sad, because i never got to meet her. Maybe she's like me? Maybe she's like my papa? Maybe she would've been my best friend if she knew english? If she knew me? Who knows right? Hopefully during summer i'll be able to visit my grandpapa... I heard he said he's lonely and now he has no one to talk to, now that my grandmama is gone): makes me kinda sad... that he's never had a memory with me... but that doesn't change the fact he's my grandpapa<3 style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">FAMILY COMES SECOND TO NO ONE. Daymn straight (:, hehe. So sadies is coming up soon! I guess i might ask bubba tong(: <3> I guess we'll have to wait and see right (:! Oh, so me and bubba tong are seeing each other? Well people think i'm taking a step back & there totally right... BUT no one said taking a step back was ever a bad thing (:, maybe taking a step back was what i needed all along... I mean if i keep running back to you, it must be something<3 face="arial">I realized that no matter what happens in life these people have always been there for me, through thick & thin, and they always stood by me when i was bitch (': !<3>
Kaelin Rain Tran
Linda Nguyen
Beast Nicole Nguyen
Bestf Justin Thai
Cf Sonny Vu
Michelle Ai Nhi Nguyen
Katie Nguyen
MitchyMitch Richmond
Melissa Katherine Le
Grasshopper Diana Truong
Casper Annie Le
Jackson Jackie
Some of them i'm not really close to anymore ): It's sad... It's either we go to different school's or we just barely talk now of days... But no matter what, through everything, they have always been there<3 There like my second family, besides the tennis girls. They've done a lot for me and i don't know how to repay them, but to be as good as a friend as they were to me<3 (': I've grown fond of them and no matter how distant we are or we barely talk, you guys will always have a role in my life, i love you guys to the fullest amount<3.
I wrote alot.. & if it doesn't make sense, then it's because the daymn thingy deleted it >:O
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